sam's superduper blog :D

2009-11-02T23:22:00.001+08:00

Enough of everything. I just want to finish this semester and then its goodbye responsibilities, goodbye everyone.

2009-09-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

It seems like its taking forever for me to improve. I don't find myself rowing as fast as I'd like to be right now. It's been like what? 4 weeks coming to 5 and I'm still a slug. What in the world is happening to me? I'm so scared that I'll never get back my top form. I'm scared that I'll just lose out like what happened at NCC. I'm afraid of being the biggest loser. Maybe that's what keeping me awake at night...

Frustrated frustrated frustrated. Stupid snail, move faster.

28 November... 3 months from now. I hope I wont be that snail by then. I hope.

2009-08-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

Weekend trip was awesomeeeee. :D A much needed getaway. 2 days of perfect sand, water and diving...

Cause I'd Get A thousand Hugs
From Ten-thousand Lightning Bugs
As They Try To Teach me How To Dance
A Fox Trot Above my Head
A Sock Hop Beneath My Bed
A Disco Ball is Just Hanging By a Thread

:))

2009-08-20T12:30:00.000+08:00

It gets frustrating and upsetting at times when I feel as if people dont acknowledge what I've done for them. 2 and a 1/2 years and counting, we're the strength of 20 people from 3. One should know that I try my best to make decisions that is best for the team and not myself. Wake up and smell the roses, I can't please everyone. I cant please all 20 of you plus coach and our SDO and at the same time ensure that everything is running smoothly. So all I can say is that I am doing my best, I am not sorry for what I said during the team talks and if you're not happy with it, tell it to me in my face and not online.

2009-07-26T16:08:00.002+08:00

4 more days of attachment and I'll be free from this damnation forever. Well, it really isnt that bad as I put it but still...20 weeks isnt a short period for a student to be totally stuck at work and not school.

Just 2 weeks ago during our classroom session made me realise how much I miss school. The familiar hallways, the everyday happenings at Business school entrance with blasting music, waiting at the mushroom and just about everything. Especially my friends. In 7 months time we'll be graduates and the start of working life looms upon some of us, guys being the exception. Boy am I ever looking forward to Senior year with everyone. With us already having hardly enough time to meet up but still manage to do so *thanks to max and his trusty car*, who knows what we'll do when school semester starts? Especially the gaming classes. Chips and poker cards and Aloysius Chery qq.

The past few weeks here at the airport has only made me more lethergic and totally flat. Its as if Im out of gas, theres nothing to look forward to, everydays a routine. I'm getting sick and tired of the gossips and hatred running thru the centres but what can i do?

Thank God theres only 4 more days till the end...anyone wants to book me after that? I'm 10 weeks free :)))

2009-07-23T22:42:00.001+08:00

I know. I just know. Quit asking me why I know so much. :) Maybe that's what I'm on earth for. To know and to solve. Is that your job for me God?

2009-07-09T22:01:00.006+08:00

4 more weeks. 2 more essays. 1 more day till Orlando interns return! :)))

Pleseant start in the morning, being able to have a quick meet up with some of the TPBC members who were sending off the mission team. Gotta see Roger, Aileen and Yun!!! Awesome start I should say...not just pleseant.

I'm so weak compared to my previous state I wonder if I can do well for the November Invites. Sometimes i just start to think twice about competing again, seeing how useless I am right now. Not being part of the team, not here, not there. I dont even know half of the freshies' names. Sorry dudes...

Welllll, I gotta crash. Opening shift once again. for the next 4 days.

In the end, I think we're coming together again...

2009-07-05T21:57:00.002+08:00

I think i've far too much on my hands right now. I just want to freaking let go of every single responsibility and run away to bintan for a week and not worry.

I'm so out of touch with the team I have no idea whats happening and I bet I'm a hot topic for gossip and on the most hate list, my reports is due in 2 weeks time and I've yet to start, I've not been training for a week making me even worse in terms of my mood and now...

it went from counting angpows for a wedding to counting condolence money.

just stop calling me over a stupid piece of cloth, stop asking me to make such simple decisions, stop expecting me to create magic.

2009-07-04T21:05:00.005+08:00

Goodbye grandpa, my heart and tears goes out to you.

Love,
Sam

2009-06-23T22:07:00.004+08:00

2009-06-22T07:11:00.002+08:00

Sunday night at Wild Oats was one of the best times I've had with everyone. Well almost everyone... Doing up the deco at 2pm under the hot afternoon sun wasnt cool man. It was sweltering! Thank God for the hotel room to shower and clean up before the wedding.

The entire wedding was a lovely affair, from helping the bride to dress and even putting the veil for her! to the photo taking cam whoring session with everyone and anyone within our sight. Of course, staking out the front entrance of the kitchen for food and crowding around the bar for drinks was part of the fun. I wasnt able to hold my alcohol well last night with an empty stomach. And i only had a glass of wine!!! Atrocity.

Sad to say, I was left alone at 9pm removing the torches and lights without any adios from them at all. Only Randall and Mixue stayed back(so nice of them) and together with Mr. Kieu and Ms. Ong we did the counting of moolahs! Mr Kieu was practically drooling over the thick wad of notes in each red packet.

Ive never seen coach that badly before. He was drunk yet sober and I had to keep reminding him to take care of his hotel pass which he forgot he had it 5 minutes after I passed it to him. before I left he was already spouting gibberish and stupid stuff which had me laughing in the hotel room yet he could still apologise to us for his lack of sanity and tell me to be safe and all. His friends were far worse, singing and laughing and cheering into the night . surprisingly one of them still had the sense and offered to help us take down the fairy lights at the relatively fast pace before resuming his singing.

Pictures up soon!

2009-06-19T07:07:00.002+08:00

I guess its time for me to take a break after this month goes past. Focus on my work report and enjoying whats left of my internship before I'm left with a 10 week holiday which may end up in the hands of SGP pte ltd.

The vast change of culture and environment from Orchard SVC to Airport SVC had me reeling from shock and ultimate boredom at first but things are starting to look up. That is if I'm working at A1 or A2. I get my own quiet time to myself in the mornings at 6am, spend some time talking to God and can even get a headstart on doing my project due in a month's time. A3 is far too quiet for my liking so I do hope that I'll be able to avoid working there as much as possible. A pure waste of 9 hours if I'm stationed at A3.

Its at times like these that my mind starts wandering and I start thinking about whats going to happen 9 months from now after I graduate. I'll finally have all the time in the world until I get a job or enrol in a university but I've yet to have a clear idea of what exactly I'm gonna do with si much free time on my hands. 9 months seems like a long way away, but trust me, soon December will come and then March and I'll be out of school. The boys would be enlisted, the girls schooling/working.

I dont know what the Lord's plan are for me right now, but I'm waiting and praying, seeing what He has in store for me.

For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to hamr you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

2009-06-13T13:09:00.002+08:00

I want to row. Stupid stupid shift at 5pm. It affects my body clock and I get tired over nothing, plus the frustration of not being able to row. Its in 7 days time. What a preparation huh Sam. Wow.

So much for thinking that I'm ready.
I'm not at my peak, I'm not at my best.
I'm not even sure if I can fight this one out.

June please go by. Then it'll be only 5 more weeks of crap to last.

And because of this, I can't take up that job. $400 down the drain. Awesome.

55mins. 55mins. Thats all I'm asking for...and a gold.

2009-06-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

I'm currently suffering the side effects of too much training within one day. But its worth the pain. We'll be back stronger, faster, better. I'm ready for my race. With what training I've had. I'm ready.

Well apart from training(the usual), work's been hella crazy place at Arrival 2. Sadly I've the shift over to A1 and A3 next weeko. :( Dang the rotations. Week 2, Week 3 please fly by. Then It'll be 4,5,6,7,8,9!!! and I'm free!

Europe or maldives? Shopping or relaxation? Oh joy.

So this is goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

2009-06-08T20:09:00.003+08:00

At 9 30am and 9 30pm everyday, Terminal 2 becomes Little India air conditioned version. Come see it for yourselves. Teeheehee. Seriously. They occupy every seat in their area and its teeming with Indians.

I miss Orchard :(. But terminal 2 isnt too bad either. Wait till I move over to T1 and T3. I think it's gonna be slow death. Please please let it be extremely super duper busy at Orchard that they will need us to go back and help out. Just one day would be cool enough.

8 more weeks. 8 more weeks. 8 more weeks. Whoo yea.
Allowance is coming in! Money Money in desperate need.

I've yet to:
1) Get the wedding deco
2) Send in SWOT profile
3) Start on my report of the centre
4) Start on my portfolio
5) ROW.

I need the sun badly. Its been a while seriously. Since i've visited the local neighbourhood pool. I NEED SUN.

howdeedooyah. Dear God please make time fly really really fast to end of July. pretty please. When Ong and Ang and Jess all return back safely. And so will Seong, Vincent, Clair and everybooody else. Please protect those sillies when they go sky diving and keep them alive to brag to me about their experience. As long as they are safe I wont mind listening to them talk about their jump. Though i'm rather envious. Haha. Oh wells. My time will come. In due time Sam.

I need to totally get a head start on the report for STB. Ohhhh joy.

2009-06-03T22:42:00.003+08:00

I want the gold at this next race. I want it really badly. I'm kinda sick of looking at bronze things. But I don't know if i can. Today's training made me realise how weak I currently am due to SIP. My strength is almost gone and I can't last a good 800m with full energy in me. I can't do an awesome start up and my body feels like a sloth.

How? Die la. But I'll die training and trying my ass out whenever I can. So yea. Thats the difference.

2009-05-17T12:24:00.002+08:00

Sam's such a silly ninny. Somebody whack her on the head please and ask her to wake up. How could I miss itttttt. Whines* She should stop waiting and waiting and waiting and wishing.

Stop hoping and waiting Sam. Stop.

2009-05-16T23:31:00.001+08:00

If every training was as good as today I'd be satisfied with rowing once a week.

3 more days! :)

2009-05-09T19:48:00.003+08:00

I did my rowing, I'm almost done with STB's project and I'm...full.

So I'm satisfied now. Thank You God.

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Enough about him already. Its not helping and it never will. Guess I'll just live my life the way it is now, taking everything and everyone in and just watching people as the days goes by.

Work's been usual i suppose...well you cant really consider it really normal and usual taking into consideration that I meet different people every single day so it cant possibly be usual...*ramble ramble ramble*

at least there's Bryan to talk to and accompany me on certain days. In a month's time we'll be swopping over to the airport which I kinda dread cause of the stories I've been hearing about it. The boring hours, the waking ups and closing shifts. oh the horror. and no friendly old tourists to ask me where to buy fine china tea cups from Versace or American Navy men asking me to help them find a store that sells barometres. I'm gonna miss those.

Its really funny at times when you get such requests from tourists but even so you go all out to TRY and find it for them. i spent a good 1/1 an hour on the internet and phone calling various stores and companies for that tea cup lady. Sadly there isnt any store selling them in Singapore.

Of course working here does allow me to see the uglier side of Singaporeans that runs businesses. Especially those at lucky plaza. They cheat these people of their money in the Thousands mind you. I wonder how come they are so willing to part with 3000 bucks for a Sanyo Digi cam even. Tsk.

Anyhoos I kinda miss school. I miss the slacking at (k)orners of the library and canteen waiting for class to start. I miss the teasing and endless laughter everyday. I miss the Sentosa campus with the sun, basketball and soccer games and chasing peacocks who shit around and everywhere. of course the beach volleyball afternoons with tutors and tanning/studying sessions when we have 6 hours between class and tests. Ohhhh I want them all back! Even the projects. The countless projects is what brings us together throughout the night without sleep with all the redbull and our trusty laptops never failing us(yea right). Its those times that when you look back, it made us smarter, stronger and more mature in handling things and thinking twice before making a decision.

Poly's been awesome in grooming all of us into young adults who are independent and not feed off textbooks and mug our hearts out. That only kinda happens twice a year for 1 week each and its pretty much sufficient to make us moan and groan. We'd rather have projects and presentations. That's what make a Temasek Poly Business student. Dress well, speak well, work well.

I doubt that we have to worry about getting jobs next year after we graduate. Of course starting up Ong and Sam beach bar will be after earning some cold hard cash and then moving up to greener pastures for our bar and sports centre. ahahaha. Ong wants it in Florida and I want it in the Bahamas or Hawaii.

So LRM-ers! Lets finish up the next 3 months of our internship well and good and get the hell out of our companies! For most of us that is. I know that U.S. people are having a awesome good blasting time at Florida. We're finally Year 3 seniors! No more freshies, no more juniors. and pretty soon...Grads. :D

Beach Volley

Our parade square and basketball court

Project meeting in progress

Cheap wonderful lunch with lovely friends

2009-05-05T21:05:00.002+08:00

I've realised something...ever since she left me hanging alone figuring out how to survive in a sexist group I never could trust others anymore. Not last time, and not now. Now, its me, myself and my boat. Nothing else, no one else can let me in till I'm done here.

Leading the team I will. At my best. Pulling the team together I will, when I can. Disciplining the team I can.

But I figured,
My own hard work, my own cookie.

2009-05-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

If trainings make me unhappy, why do I still go for them?
Not even a word of Thank You.
You're welcome anyway.

Sometimes being so sacrificial doesnt pay off at all. and right now im regretting my position.
Timmy, I need to talk to you. Hurry come back from U.S. You're probably the only one that understands what I'm going through right now.

Oh God, can you like rapture me now or something. My current life is dumpy.

and today we acted like strangers.noob.

2009-04-28T23:27:00.001+08:00

Today's training was...GOOOOOOOOOD.

I like. I miss. I want more.

2009-04-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

Sam see's grumpy cause she cant compete tomorrow neither can she go down and support her team and she has work over the weekends.

Other than that...I had an Awesome 2 off days in TP for recruitment and catching up with me friends :D

2009-04-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do...

2009-04-17T23:11:00.002+08:00

Happily bruised and burnt. :)
Today was awesome. I'm easily satisfied.

Congratulations to SAINTS and Temasek Sec for their haul of medals! I'm so so happy for you all and truly impressed by your determination and team spirit. 9 golds for a sec school...THATS A FEAT!

I'm gonna miss you guys from SA man...another batch gone.

2009-04-16T20:43:00.002+08:00

Its at times like this that I wonder why I bother to ask in order to keep myself updated about them when they dont tell me the happenings.
Its at times like this, when fellow leader has no response, so how do you expect me to give advice and consultation.

Sometimes I wonder why I work so hard for other people. Why I want my teams to do so well but the others inside it doesnt reflect my ideals and thinking. I see "Strength" they see "weakness". I think "Boldness" they give me "Fear"

How then can you expect one to soar and excel if you're so afraid to beat yourself. To overcome your mind and to tell yourself that YOU JOLLY WELL CAN DO IT?

They dont see all the hardwork that goes into everything I do to make it a better, tighter, stronger team than it was 2 years ago. Some just see me as a role that scares people for the sake of it. Some probably dont think that I deserve this.

Myself? I take what has been given to me and i do my best behind the curtains...
That has been the way since Secondary school and I guess it will remain the same.

2009-04-15T12:46:00.004+08:00

its one of those days that I get a chance to just laze around at home and appreciate the silence around me. Not the hustle and bustle of orchard road, nor the sound of music stuffed up my ears from my Ipod to conceal the train's rumbles. Yet, I wonder if given the chance to live on an island like the Bahamas or Maldives, would I be able to LIVE on it for a long period of time and not have the urge to run crying back to noisy, moving Singapore...

Its once again another season of my life that I have to start praying and asking the Lord to guide and direct my footsteps after the course of my graduation in 10 months. I'm pretty sure these 10 months will fly by with tears (definitely), sleepless nights and laughter.

Speaking about laughter, I'm terribly missing my friends. I miss Ong's stupidity and impulsiveness, Ang's gaming talks, Clair's cheerfulness and everyone elses company. COME BACK SOON GUYS! 2 1/2 more months for the US interns :)

2009-04-13T11:16:00.003+08:00

A new week once again and just the start of work. Thank God for the afternoon shift today, allowing me to catch up on some much needed sleep. Its not often that I get to do so. Even during off days most of the time is spent out of the house.

Rightyho. I'm gonna catch the musical CATS! After 10 years of hearing about it but not seeing it, its high time that I get to do so. and when Singapore arts festival rounds the corner I'll be getting my tickets for the ballet. Anyone interested in watching with me?

Training's been on a hold the past week what with the A divs coming up and no boats for the team to use. its a headache trying to figure out when I can squeeze some time to really sit down and write out the work plan for this year plus waiting for the budget and preparing for recruitment. Hopefully the team can do an impressive job for next week without me breatheing down their necks. Yes, they should be able to do so. :)

Another batch of friends have entered their term in the army for the next 1 1/2 years. I guess time will fly once again, and they'll come out of it hardy and much better prepared to face the world or start schooling again. By then, I probably would have settle down in my job or contemplating quitting and furthering my studies. Though thats my plan, yet I'm not sure if its what the Lord wants for me. Working once I finish school seems like a good idea, yet im faced with the prospect of getting a dull office job or just being a front desk staff.

Hopefully, my holiday trip to the Maldives will surface after SIP and then i'll be able to get a feel of whats it really like to work in a self sustained/sufficient island without any shopping malls and normal living people other than rich holiday spenders as your companions.

My thoughts are all in a mess right now as you can probably tell from the post. Jumping from point to point without any relevance. Oh wells. I guess its cause other thoughts are just so distracting and you cant get them off your mind right now.

2009-04-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

Cause I have a feeling that I'm gonna miss you.

2009-04-07T21:38:00.003+08:00

~~Cause its you whom im smiling for~~

5, 4, 3, 2, 1

Ciao

2009-04-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

This is what I call...SCHOOL.

I miss my team.

2009-04-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

Work's been fun fun fun!
I love talking to the tourists and little kids that get so facinated by the night safari model we have in the centre.
Its egg-citing to be able to plan out other people's itineraries, encouraging them to go to EVERYWHERE! hahaha. and see the disappointment on their faces when they say that they do not have enough time to cover Singapore. Then I'll always tell them...Extend your stay! Ahaha.
I'm so proud of myself. I can actually provide information to China tourists. :D In chinese! WITH a lil bitty bit of english. hahaha.

We've had tourists that come and ask/tell us:
Where to buy guns,
If there are telecopes for guns
where to get swimming pool lights... =.=

Of course there are those that make my day.
Tourists that tell me that I've done an awesome job and that I'm good(though i've only been on the job for 3 days!)
Those that write in the feedback form that I've given them everything they wanted and excellent service. These are the people that keep me running for each and every 9 hour shift per day. :):)

plus one Mister from Bombay that still has me laughing when I think of him.
" MY WIFE THINKS IM CRAZY" hahahaha. For coming to Singapore so often for holiday. Hahaha. He claims that Singapore is the best in the world and congratulated me in having such a fine country. I didn't know what else to say but...uhhh Thanks?

Apart from that, I met Samuel for lunch lunch lunch today! Sadly though it was a relatively rush lunch since I only had a 1 hour break. But it was good to meet up with him. :D Whos the next one for lunch?! Aileeeeeeeeen!!!!Deb!!!Joyce!!!Matt!!! Matt promised to meet me in his uniform. haha hes so proud of it.

2009-03-29T19:32:00.005+08:00

MR500 has been the worst race of my entire canoeing period. They screwed up my results, my finals race listing and misplaced my medal.

I'm not entirely upset about not getting the medal. I'm upset with how the organiser spoke to me. "Things happen" and without any hint of apology isnt the best way to talk to a race participant.

Thank you for bringing such a horrible ending to what I had hoped could be a wonderful race.
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I guess you never start out loving someone. Its more of an interest in and then you make the effort to know more about the person.

2009-03-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

So much so for rowing today. Thanks for affecting me mentally.

2009-03-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

They threw me with the position, yet am i competent enough to lead them?

I was comfortable with my previous standing and was not asked if i wanted to move.

Wheres the democracy in this?

I wont be as involved with the team as I was last year but I'll try my best to be what I can and give what I can for them.

All I ask for is support and understanding. and someone I can talk to.

Hey a See needs a listening ear too you know. I dont just talk.

Well...mostly I do, talk.

what is your problem? you refuse to talk to me, and hardly give me any hint of friendliness. dont tell me all those rubbish is affecting you? YEA RIGHT.

2009-03-24T22:22:00.004+08:00

He never should have said anything from the start. Now it seems so messed up.

Maybe its just me.

18 days time Marcus & Joel are going in and coming as recruits. The whole batch will then be officially all NS slaves. Well at least most of them had their POP already. :)

and soon...you.

2009-03-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

Lay looks like he got his leg amputated off.
He tries throughout the day to take unglam photos of me

@ e zoo! Waiting for e elephant show to begin

One for the camera!

After 10 hours of seeing animals,this is what you get. Barbaric people.

More up once I reduce the size of the photos. Some are on facebook too for the STB people. =)

Week 2 of internship...19 more weeks to go.

2009-03-21T22:06:00.002+08:00

Theres a certain species of men that deserve to be castrated and thrown into the white tigers den for all I care. Perverts. I almost felt like kicking one today down the double decker bus stairs. Being unfortunate enough to meet 2 this week is enough for the rest of my life. Dont let me see any of you again or else you'll get a smelly stinky kick from me.

On a lighter note, driving today was fun. Mr. Teacher made me learn parking on my own. he just gave me this instructions:

Turn left full 1 1/2 turns.
yes yes turn, ok, now zam the right hand side. yes, then turn left again.
ahhh straighten out. there you go.

Then he got out of the car to talk with the rest of the uncles and left me fooling around at the wheel. I swear I was moving the car around the parking lots like a fool. Most of the time the car ended up diagonally across 2 lots. and I managed to hit the parking pole down. Gosh...I felt like a bimbo for once. I was making funny faces at my teacher who was standing outside and not bothering about how his car was being parked. Oh wells. Practice makes perfect. :D

May 19 May 19 I shall pass and get my license!

1 more week to MR500!
Theres so much running through my head, so many people that I'm thinking of right now.
Gotta take a breather and stare out at the stars first.
It has been 6 longgg years my friend. I'm glad its finally over.
I miss Matthias Foo, Marcus Tan and Mark Leong. I miss playing and making music with them. Now my guitar is out of tune. Stupid army, take my friends away from me.

2009-03-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

No one knows how terrified you really are except yourself. They say things like "You should be coming down" and "you slacker" but they have no idea whats going on in your everyday life. I try to commit as much as I can when I can. I dont think they should be the ones telling me what to do after all that I've been through.

Maybe I shouldnt even be bothered with what they think. its how I arrange my time anyway. In the end, its I who get the sweet smell of success by God's grace. Go on and say as much as you want abt me not training. I'll be there on saturday the 28 to the podium with God's strength and my own training.

Wonder why i even bother to stay at times. I've never felt appreciated anyway most of the time.
So much so for putting in effort the past year. No one even bothers or cares anyway.
A little encouragement will never surface i guess, not from this team.

2009-03-19T22:54:00.002+08:00

Day 2 of training was exhausting. Travelled the whole of city area covering orchard, somerset, city hall and the various quays plus CBD area. Started from took the HIPPO tours, went to Barrage, Flyer, South Pier, Asian Civilisation Museum, Clark Quay, Boay Quay, Robertson Quay, Lau Pa Sat and Singapore River. By the time we finished, which was 10pm, everyone one was stoned.

Day 3 was fun with momma Rosie :D. she brought us to the Botanical Gardens, Rochester Park, Dempsey area, DUCK tours! and lastly Holland V where we had our fill of fried rice. Picutres up soon soon!

Today was sentosa. And I've never been to so many attractions in one day at Sentosa. hahaha. The 4D magic was awesome and entertaining as well as the butterfly park. and Songs of the Sea at night as well. If theres one thing that you should catch, the latter is worth every cent of $6. Fort Siloso felt like we were at war...with the sun. Sweltering heat I swear. Pictures up when the camera is charged!

Orlando people, if you're reading this, we STB people are having a pretty good time as well. hahaha. MISS YOU GUYS!

2009-03-15T21:11:00.005+08:00

It still hasnt really sunk in that I'm gonna start 5 months of work tomorrow and that more than half of my clique is gone or is going to fly for 4-5months till end July. Must be the cause of my gloom and grumpy-ness the past few days. If I'm already missing them right now, i cant imagine when we graduate. Gosh, that would be...heartache.

Guys, if you are reading this...but you're on the butt cracking plane ride currently so i doubt so...KEEP 1 AND 2ND AUGUST FREE.

Tsk, work hasnt started and I've already thought of what I'm gonna do after my stint at STB. Maybe a trip to Hawaii for a holiday and looking up the university there.

No doubt everyone keeps telling me that I'm so priviledge to be placed at STB cause it definitely has a good profile and lovely to place in my resume, but the thought of being in customer service for a good 18 months is pretty...well uninteresting, sadly.

Apart from that, MR500 is up in 2 weeks and I dont feel ready for it. After implementing the new technique and whatsoever, it does seem so much more effective but it'll take longer than 2 weeks to get it right but all I have right now is...this coming tues-sat and nothing else. No matter what I'll always give it my 200% so we'll just have to wait for 28 march to come round...

Say you're sorry

That face of an angel comes out

Just when you need it to

As I pace back and forth all this time

'CauseI honestly believed in you

Holdin' on,

The days drag on

Stupid girl

I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess

This ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood,

This is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now its too late for you and your White Horse,

To come around.

2009-03-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

4-1 4-1 4-1. HAHAHAHAHA. Points at man United fans and laugh. :D

Bye bye Jessica, Ang, Ong, Gwen! Take care in orlando!!!

2009-03-11T21:25:00.003+08:00

1 word to describe this semester's grades: shitass

from a 3.57 to 3.34.
When I put in so much effort into MICE and it reaps a C+, the feeling isnt exactly awesome.
There goes my DHL...

But thanks Vincent for the encouragement. Whats done is done, no use crying over spilled milk. Guess I'll just come back at 3.2 stronger and more determine to pull up whats left of my pathetic GPA.

So for now, all of us will work towards Pass with Commendation for our attachment and look forward to meeting each other again after 31st july.

P.S. I love my course mates. They're one of the greatest people God has blessed me with. :)

STB, get ready for Sam.

And I'll soar, on wings like eagles

Held by the hand of God

I will run, and not grow tired

When on His name I'll call

For the Lord, is never weary

His ways are beyond my thoughts

I will trust in Him, With all my heart.

And I will rest upon His promise,

And patiently I'll wait...

2009-03-10T21:42:00.002+08:00

Why does it seem that my injury is coming back again? It's starting to hurt whenever I paddle for over an hour and the rest of the day. =( MR500 in 2 1/2 weeks time. Technique technique technique womannn.

Results are coming out tmr! Via sms. Dang, my GPA had better increase by 0.1 at least.

Sam's mind is all whirly right now. Her friends are gonna fly away to America and Cheena in 5 days time. She's already missing them like 10000times after Si kai's silly chalet and our night of pick up sticks, monopoly and chompchomp. Sam misses bobtomtan, timmy, noisy ong, vincent, seong,clair and everyone everyone else. Internship please fly by so that my friends can come back to me in August and then we can do fun things again. 5 months :( :( :(

2009-03-05T19:10:00.002+08:00

Holey Macaroni! My project group's event is shortlisted by Sentosa Leisure Group to be a potential youth night event! Like oh my geez how in the world did that happen? Out of 100 over proposed events and we're one of the top 5?! We seriously thought nothing of our event materializing and only wanted the grade. Who knew that SLG is interested in our crazy ideas. Xtreme Xtion baby! Ong practically flipped over the phone when i called him to relate the news. Though we already have secured our internship but I guess this one with SLG is another potential attachment and will look great on our resumes. Poster Presentation on Tuesday. Awesome! Thank you God!

Plus plus Singapore Grand Prix F1 contacted me again to get us to work for them again the whole of sept this year. Whoohoo. I get to meet Jet Jay Jas David Gene Stuart Adrian and all again! :D :D

Today cant get any better than this.

23 more days to podium finish

2009-03-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

Sam see's exhilarated that she can participate in MR500 in a month's time and at the same time totally enjoy interning at Singapore Tourism Board. I'm so looking forward to the 10 day training programme after looking at the schedule. They're bringing us to the Zoo! Hooray! and night safari, sentosa, marina bay, orchard, museums, bugis, chinatown and more!

I get to train early in the mornings before going of to work. So I must must do my very best for this competition before focusing on SIP for the next 5 months.

I can finally get some good sleep tonight :D

2009-03-01T21:26:00.003+08:00

Sam's happy today cause she finally met Matthias Foo again after 1 and a 1/2 months. :D That boy's hair is gone gone gone! Surprisingly he's Pes C cause of a stupid knee injury. See, Foo(pun not intended),play hockey too much. hahaha. Gosh I miss talking to him. Too bad we only had like 10 mins to catch up and him teaching me the powder bath song. Reminds me of school camps and Flee Fly Mosquito songs.

Looking at the hundreds of photos I have of SF, last year's birthday surprise was the funniest. Met Foo, Mark, Marcus and Gracia at Marina Square for the afternoon and Foo accidently let it slip that while we were out, Aileen and Co. were in my house for reaso I did not know but could obviously guess. So he begged me to act surprised and all and I was laughing my way up the stairs with him. hahaha.

and of course the MSM script writers for the christmas' skits. Great memories.

I miss my Sfers!

2009-02-28T19:59:00.002+08:00

Maybe the reason why I never got what I wanted was because He never let me have it. Not last time not now but hopefully not forever.

2009-02-23T21:02:00.004+08:00

21 more days to internship.
23 more weeks to end of internship and back to rowing.

I know its really foolish of me to be missing trainings already when I still have 3 full weeks ahead of me to row myself silly. But one can't help it when i've become so extremely attached to the reserviour and the familiar walk down to the club across pebbled walkways.

Apart from mourning the loss of 20 weeks of 'hardly any kayaking', today's MICE paper was a grace from God and leniency from Cassim. I swear that Cassim is the most lenient teacher on this entire planet and true to his word. Why we bothered to study other notes apart from the revision lecture...I do not know. Thank God that I was 'kia su' enough to meet him for a consultation on my previous exam paper and he left Clair and I tips on what we should be studying. i.e. Just the revision notes. And boyyy did I vomit everything out once I entered the exam hall. For one, I was late for the paper. A first. Yea Late. I missed my reading time and precious 10 mins of frantic writing but thankfully managed to get into the swing of things immediately. After that it was just endless writing of 12 pages till the clock struck 11 30am. So much for leaving my house early...still got there late. Ugh.

Lunch and study today is something that our clique will probably be doing for the last time until next year same period. The usual laughter and rubbish spouted by the guys and items going missing till things are packed up and needing to be stored in bags. Occupying 3 tables even though theres only 8 of us. Joking with the tutors, Zinal especially, and seeing Geoffery Tai in a Hawaiian shirt. Haha. Ong dared Tai to wear that to SSM next term. Hahaha. I'd bet Goh's reaction would be priceless. *Both the latter and former are lecturers BTW*

Its scary realising how fast time is flying. 5 out of the 9 of us are leaving for either China or Orlando for attachment leaving the 4 of us stranded on this puny island as local interns. I'll be missing them for sure, seeing how we kinda managed to stick together(figuratively) for the past 2 years even though we separated in year 2. I thank God that this group of friends aren't a one off one semester classmates and I do hope that we continue to meet up and of course SKYPE when those ninnys are enjoying themselves wholly in US and China. Ang and Ong are gonna get me my branded goods from US and Seong is getting me my iPhone from China. hahahaha. I'll hold them to their promise.

Of course talking about the near future, what all of us are going to do after we graduate with diplomas(with MERIT none the less) is an intimidating yet exciting thought. We're not JC students who still have no idea as to what their future holds for them. We're successful TP students, probably as smart as JC kids, and maybe even more street smart since we have to survive in a dog eat dog campus...knowing or at least have an idea as to where we want to work at or study after we grad. For the guys, needless to say they'll be shaving off their 'mane' in time to come and I've already promised them that...'Don't worry, when you start working, you'll be working for me' hahaha. Ong refuses to believe that and says that he either works WITH me or I work FOR him. Well, I do pray that our beach bar will not just be a fantasy but a reality in time to come. Start scouting for potential islands dude!

I hold plans for myself that am afraid that if i speak it out loud, my Lord will take it away from me.As if he cant read my mind. hah. Plans of working in Singapore Sports Council or a resort and slowly working my way up as a successful General Manager of the company. I have goals of working and playing a part in the Youth Olympic Games and being the pioneer batch(once again) of workers in the Integrated Resorts. Yet I am unsure of what the Lord wants for me.

But as for right now what I do know is that...I need to study my accounts to reach my goals. -.-
A D+ will not suffice Sam...not at all.

2009-02-20T23:40:00.002+08:00

I love my place at the window, staring into the empty street of Tavistock Ave, hearing the dogs bark and getting a perfectly unobstructed view of the stars in the night sky. The stars seem prettier here than at Minton Rise :)

2009-02-20T10:45:00.003+08:00

Do you remember the time when you just felt like sitting on your friends or team mates and pounding them into the earth after they said something horribly upsetting and insulting to you? Yea thats what I'm thinking of doing right now. Only short of carrying out that action and using words to fired at them instead.

Smelly creatures boys are.

2009-02-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

Heyho dum dee dumdumdum. 5 more days to exams! Thank God its just 2 papers and year 2 is over. Tuesday will be the most fantabulous day of BANG! and Mahjong. whoohoo. Three cheers for Clarissa's house. Then its row row row till I get sick of it by 16 march. I swear I will row until the very last day possible and try my very utmost best to come down on my free days. Sam See's so sad thinking about attachment =(

Sometimes i wonder if this is the right road that God wants me to take. Talking to Jarelyn a few days ago got me praying over again, asking the Lord if he has other plans for me after my diploma. In a matter of 12 months I'd have graduated and be looking for a job to jet start my career. or maybe, taking time off to just serve and learn more about Him. Or maybe ending up in school again furthering my studies or taking a whole different course.

Well...at the end of the day, I'll know in 12 months time. Hooray to that.

2009-02-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

Its study week and im finally stressing over my coursework grades. I know that its a little too late to make amends but by the looks of things...i'd need to work doubly hard for accounting and MICE to even stand a chance of remaining in DHL and a year away to graduating with COM.

Argh, even the current coursework grades that have been released are not helping in claming me down. Sam sam sam, you gotta work your butt off if you want this. So I promise that I'll start doing 1 accounts paper everyday starting Wednesday till Sunday.

2009-02-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

I'm secretly worried about what will happen to me when I start my internship. That gone will be the days of walking across the bridge to the reserviour to row at my whim and fancy. I'm so so afraid of my strength and stamina dropping. I shudder at the thought of not being able to paddle for weeks, of not being able to participate in MR500 and NCC and of course missing my team. The team that has been my pride and joy since it was founded. 1 more month to interning and God knows what they have in store for me...

2009-02-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

I think I'm losing my voice. Good bye

2009-01-17T21:13:00.002+08:00

Gosh how time flies...Everythings been zooming past me day after day that i've hardly had time to catch my breath let alone sit down and ponder and type out an entry.

So, i've completed 22km, 4 portages at the Singapore Canoe Marathon, placed 3rd for that. Not entirely satisfied with the results but I'll take what I've been given and be grateful.

I've finished my major reports and interviews that has to do with the bulk of the coursework this semester.

I've settled my internship and have secured a place at Singapore Tourism Board.

I've met up with my dear tpbc friends this month and realise that half of them have already been stuck at Tekong for the past week.

I've visited Sugarloaf too many times than I ever imagined to.

and i've still managed to fit training into the crazy time table that i have. Hooray!

2009-01-04T20:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes all I can do is laugh at what God has planned for me. I mean as if he was just teasing me and saying 'I told you so'.

I've rejected SAF Yatch Club much to my own flesh disappointment. You all know how much I love being out at sea and this job would be the perfect one. Teaching kids how to sail and kayak. Organising sea sports events. But apparently it was not to be. According to God that is. He refused to give me a peace of heart, soul and spirit the whole of yesterday and today until I finally relented and wrote the email back to SAF citing some unexplainable personal reasons that prevents me from interning at their company. Problem was, last night I was all over the floor, hunting high and low for my kayak certs, 1 cert in particular and I could not find it. Like EVERYWHERE. I couldnt find it. and I was telling God, 'You really really dont want me to take up this company do you?' So I didnt, and just 1 hour ago I found that blasted cert hidden away in a corner that I would never think of searching...though I must admit that it was in plain sight.

So guys out there, my God's too cool for words. Cause he plays along with me when I dont obey Him but he doesnt scold me. He only hides my stuff. Hahahaha.

2009-01-04T01:19:00.001+08:00

STB
SAF
SGP

Oh Lord, which one? which one?

2009-01-02T23:06:00.005+08:00

Hallejuah for 2009! I'm looking forward to a year of abundant living as what Pastor Dom shared. After a year of New Beginnings, its time to move forward and bask in the abundance that the Lord has in store for meeeee!!!

2008 has been an awesome year, getting to know so many people in TP, finding my footing in LRM, enjoying Sentosa, F1 SGP!, going through the tough journey of kayaking to emerge successful. Oh the wonderful opportunities God had for me.

Of course the year had its fair share of woes and tears. But I've realised that nothing is lost with God by my side. Even friendships can still remain tight when people are a further distance away from you physically.

New year's eve was spent at Trinity until 10 30 and then I left early cause Gracia Kor came over for a sleep over! I've missed that girl terribly. and no matter how boring it may seem to some of you, spending our last minutes of 2008 counting down in front of a television screen munching on pizza, the night was nice and simple, catching up and just talking ourselves to sleep on the sofa bed.

Morning saw us having brunch and chasing Spencer around the porch while Jackie cleaned his cage. That poor little rodent was scared out of his wits with the wide wide world open to him. Gracia brought him to visit the sharks next door. Haha.

Last year was indeed a year that saw me having a gazillion more new friends at TP. Priceless friendships that I pray will continue to strengthen.

Gina
Edwin
Brandon
Alex
Naz
Chew
Lay
Max
Silas
Zhi Rong
Amanda
Clair
Celine
Kok Wei
Andy
Yolande
Josh
Zion
Bryan
Randall
Eveleen
Wing Yan
Ah Chun
163
Shu Hui
Xiang Lin
Bo Chun
Chern Ron
Melvin
Don
Ben
Alfred

and so many so many more.

Thank You for making 2008 a fantastic year and 2009 and year to look forward to.

SENIOR YEAR HERE I COME!

2008-12-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

Its....CHRISTMAS!!! anddddd I'm doing my MICE report!!! How awesome is that? I swear I could cry and jump down the building if i didnt have God.

29 Dec...get over and away with it. I have 3 reports to submit on monday 9 30am. and I have ssm to boot. Swell. What in the world was the director thinking when he set the academic calendar for AY08/09?!?!

I'll remember this year for the rest of my life. Christmas spent doing reports. Wheee....

2008-12-15T21:54:00.003+08:00

I've finally moved to Serangoon Gardens. After months of anticipating we're here right now. Sadly it hasnt really sunk in that i've MOVED and not just holidaying or visiting a home. Its my home now not Minton Rise. I couldnt help but get a little emotional after dinner when we went back to Lor Ah Soo to get more stuff.

12 years at Lor Ah Soo, specifically my younger days in primary school and teenage years. Where I've grown up, suffered the usual case of bullying, run home to cry to mummy, walk to school, grow up in sunday school and SF, cycling trips, Ah Soo Gang, Terence irritating me and so much so much more memories left from that place. It was a place of refuge not only for my own family but others, including gracia and hui shi. haha. The fond memories...

Its sad to know that im leaving the ah soo gang and that others will soon be moving away as well when the enbloc is successful in a matter of time. I suppose one cannot expect to hold on to time and the past but to look forward to greater and better things that God has planned for us.

The nostalgia is here to stay for a while and im definitely gonna be home sick.

Frankly this year has been a painful year of changes. When Pastor mentioned about this year being a Year of Changes for each and every one of us yesterday, I was wondering...how in the world did he know that? But it wasnt him, it was God who decided that this year would be a year of changes for our family and for a lot of people. It hasnt been the easiest of years that i've experienced. In fact, I bet its one of the most emotionally difficult times. When everything/everyone feels...distant, gone and theres nothing left and it feels like you have to start all over again. When you feel as if even your best friend doesnt understand how you feel cause shes not experiencing the same thing.

But God's grace is ever present and he still sends me friends that are in the same predicament as me. You dont know how lovely it is to be able to share with each other and really truly understand what he is going through as well.

No matter how many tears i've cried this year, I know that every one is precious in God's eyes and He's watching out for me.

2008-12-08T14:35:00.002+08:00

Zee houze iz inz a mezz. Helpppp. Boxes stacked everywhere, dishes piled on the dining table, clothes strewn all over. Just 1 more week to moving. And I gotta survive the rest of the year.

I've yet to complete my CV and resume, study for mid semester tests, prepare for proficiency test which is tomorrow. GAH.

Updates when I can afford it. For now...Ciao.

2008-11-25T01:46:00.000+08:00

I can finally sleep!

Sweet sweet sleep here i come!

Wakey up at 6am Sam!

2008-11-24T21:54:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 6,

ran around like a headless chicken for 9 hours,

crashed for 1 hour to eat lunch/dinner (dunch),

calculas project meeting,

left early due to exhaustion,

reached home at 8 slammed down on the bed immediately and woke up at 9 30pm to complete the lovely 4000 word essay now. MUMMY, I WANNA SLEEP. The balls of my feet hurt terribly and my body screams sleep. I swear this is worse than training.

2008-11-23T16:40:00.002+08:00

4000 word essay due on Tuesday, 9 30am.

Operations week 2 tomorrow, Ass. Headwaiter.

RP Canoeing Championships, Saturday

Calculas graph analysis

Moving boats, Friday

Ohhhhh yeaaa. Lets get it started.

I'm counting on God, Counting, Counting on God. Whoohoo!

2008-11-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

Operations day 1 is finally over!!! 8 hours of standing. Over. 8 hours of gel hard hair. Over. Guests...NO MORE. for this week. YEAAAAA MAN. I mean, come on, if you found yourself repeating the menu over in your sleep, mumbling to yourself at 1 am in the morning you gotta give me a break man. haha. OVER OVER OVER!

Next week I'm the Ass. Headwaiter. Oh Joyyyyy. *rolls eyes* Blah. But never me mind. I'm gonna enjoy this busyw eek and finish the rest of my papers due first before thinking about next weeks ssm. Whoohoo.

You go God! Thank you so much for being with me :D:D

2008-11-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

Nostalgia

I miss my girlfriends.

Bre

Dora

Chua

Zoey

Celeste

Xiu Juan

Jasmine

Hannah

Hui Zi

Michelle Ng

and plenty plenty more. I need my naggy mummys to keep me in check and in step with God. Why cant TP be like PL. I want my chapels back.

and they're all getting attached! one by one. Gosh we really really need to meet up and update each other dearies.

Hannah and I shall wait for our God given prince charming to arrive. :)

2008-11-12T21:40:00.003+08:00

SSM is scaring me. Change of menu, inclusion of new coffee, lattes, smoothies etc. Oh My Geeee. Help Lord Help. We cant afford Top Table to screw up on its first day of operations. =( and please please please help my waiters buck up and be more on the ball. Sme bunch of blur guys under me. Booo. I dont want to be scolded and shouted at in the face again and again and again. Its gets very tiring to keep a strong front.

Round ubin over and behind us, gotta look towards RP invitationals now. Trainings start tomorrow.

Sam feels grumpy. *swings imaginary bag at imaginary friend* I need kiang ang and si kai now. punching bags. Teeheehee.

Im posting rubbish. Sorry for the crap that you're reading. SSM is really screwing up my brain right now.

I dont think I can laugh away what they have been saying to me any longer. It comes to a point where I do have feelings and im still who I am. Its one thing to joke around and its another to repeatedly tease. Frankly I dont care about who you all are interested in and the girls that walk your way. You wanna talk about it, tell the other guys. Im not one of you. They need to know that. But I guess they're just shallow, dense headed, unfeeling, unthoughtful guys. Which guy isnt?

2008-11-09T20:25:00.004+08:00

Kok wei - irritating kid

Bestest team manager in the entire world

Round Ubin Kayak 08!

I guess that sums it up. Frankly, I dont feel any extreme happiness and satisfaction. Instead I feel as if I dont deserve it. The guys have trained so hard yet they didnt get anything. and I got mine because...there were lesser participants in my category. It wasnt a fair win.

Coach was the best thing during the entire trip round ubin. Not once did he shout at me which was a miracle. Just pushing me on and on and on. Two words that kept me moving "keep going, keep going, keep going" Just how many participants had the privilege of having their coach draft them side by side, guide them away from currents, warn them about side waves and wait for them when they capsize? and he could have chosen to help Damien instead. Thats why I feel over privileged and undeserving.

More pictures up when I get them from the photographer. Till then...its goodbye kayaking for 4 days and hello school work.

2008-11-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

6 more days to Round Ubin Race. Thinking about it gives me goosebumps and shivers down my spine. Everybody has high hopes for Damien and I. I have high hopes of myself placing as well. But can I? Can I can I? I'm starting to doubt myself and I cannot afford to.

The mind is a strong factor.

Can I stay on draft with coach for 22km?

Can I hold on to 75% for 2 and a 1/2 hours?

Can I place 1st?

My minds a whirl. Projects are coming in. I've been posted as one of the captains at ToP Table together with Gwen and Winnie for the 1st day of operations. Competitions this month. Can I juggle everything and give every single work 100%?

I know I can. I can, I can.

Cause I have God. :)

Sam See needs to go play with hammy and spencer to calm herself down.

2008-10-29T23:04:00.003+08:00

School's been...busy? I think so. Yea it has been. Monday is 8-6 for Service Skills, Tues 8-4 Culi! I'm getting cuts each week. But my vegetable cuts are getting better! yay to that! Juliennes and Brunoise aint easy at all. 0.2x0.2x0.2 Ohhhhh the horror. Teehee :D

Round Ubin Race is coming coming coming! and we're training training training. I really do hope and pray that all our hard work will be shown during the race. I'm praying for a podium finish, dreaming for the gold.

11 more days!

22km open waters/channels!

sun, salt, wind!

8K1 womens in competition. Go for it Sam.

Since i've been training side by side with Coach whos gonna assist me during the race as my support, the only thing that I'm worried about now is whether I can sustain my 75% for the whole 22km on his draft.

What if, what if, what if?

Cannot doubt cannot doubt cannot doubt.

Can do can do can do.

Gold gold gold.

2008-10-27T15:46:00.001+08:00

I am sure all of heaven's heard me cry
As I tell You all the reasons why
This life is just too hard

But day by day
Without fail
I'm finding everything I need
And everything that You are
To me

Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer
I never want to leave
I want to stay in Your warm embrace
Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face
And every time I get another glimpse of Your heart
I realize it's true
That You are so marvelous God
And I am so in love with You

Now how could I after knowing One so great
Respond to You in any way
That's less than all I have to give
But by Your grace I want to love You not with what
I say
But everyday
In a way that my life is lived

Wrapped in Your mercy I want to live and never leave
I am held by how humble
Yet overwhelmed by Your majesty
Captured by grace and now I'm finding
I am free
You are marvelous God
And knowing You is everything

Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer
I never want to leave
I want to stay in Your warm embrace
Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face
And every time I get another glimpse of Your heart
I realize it's true
That You are so marvelous God
And I am so in love with You

2008-10-18T22:22:00.004+08:00

last 3 weeks of hols have been a BLAST :DD

ROUND UBIN

POOL/ARCADE

Coach playing some sniper game -.-

IKEA to get stuff for NELO Convincing coach to put this in the club.

Back to childhood. Coach scared the crap out of me when i was playing on the see saw with Kok Wei.

PUNISHMENT
Stupid idiots forgot to lock the cupboard containing 2 paddles and got punished. Raking leaves.

Damien Bangla

Kok wei came down expecting only a lecture but ended up doing shit. haha
Arun maria haha

Being a nice and helful vice captain I helped them. It ended up pouring rain and leaves covering the ground once again. ahahaha

Pioneers. and then there was three...

Goodbye hols, hello crazy timetable

2008-10-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

Jesus, you're everything I need.

Grace

2008-10-09T23:30:00.003+08:00

The team's mission was to send Steve off. Hes Peter's coach. Peter: Hungarian World Championship rower-->Mentors Temasek Kayak Racing team i.e. Us.
So Steve is THE POWER. haha only problem is he doesnt converse in english.

We went to the airport not knowing his flight, the timing and what terminal. GG. It became a outing instead. haha

Jiao Lian trying to give the "Steve Smile"
Result of too much training
Helloooo Kayak Racing Team!

Band of Banglahs

Cheers.

2008-10-04T21:56:00.009+08:00

F1 ALERT.

Picture galore. If you cant be bothered, dont.

Pre Race Packing the $7000/person tickets

Then it was back to good ole' physical work. We is strong girls! We moved everything here w/o e guys.
Sky Terrance- $4000/person if I'm correct
Lifestyle Hub- Where all the richie richs go to party, drink, club, and watch the race.

Garages

Pit Entry, Straight, Exit
Yea mann. Its been an awesome Pre Race
Peeking into their garages at night

The eventual winner

RACE DAYS

Yachts filled with bikini clad and beer tummy people

Race circuit
Grandstand and suites
POST RACE
Wet wet day

Lunch with the mates-We get to eat in the suites as well. hahaha. FOR FREE. and Good hotel food. and watch the race from the sky terrace with the guests.whooooo
Awesome F&B group
LEFTOVERS. I have them :D
Black Label Walker
Whites, Red, Champagne

Gin
Trashed suites
DUMPSTER. Rancid, horrible smell
Good ole' Mojojojo

Yea. I saw the good, the bad and the ugly of F1. Not just race days. That aint what F1 is man.

The merchandise sold there are priced exorbitantly. Get a coke for $8 and burger for $12. A Ferrari shirt costs roughly $100? But I got it for free. =)

Was talking to some friendly Ferrari team guy who was walking out after Sundays finals and lamenting to him how we werent able to look around at the stalls and get souveniers. He gave us his shirt! An actual staff shirt. Not some souvenier. But I gave it to Aileen. Cause there were 2 of us...and 1 shirt. Oh wells. :)

Should I work next week? Should I should I? Round Ubin and POLITES are calling out loud. GOLD MEDAL SAMMMM.

2008-10-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

Catch us on CNA 28 and 29 Oct.

Awesome day. :)

2008-09-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

Finally...

The beauties are here. Rushed down on a sweltering sat afternoon from work to at least touch them. I got so excited I practically skipped my way down to the pontoon. They're sensitive to my movements and the seat can be adjusted to my favoured height. awesome. :)

BUTTTTTT the volume is too large. -.- Too large to the extend that im literally floating on water. The nelo cant sink in halfway like its suppose to. Tze Tian said that he could even see the stern above the water. Thats ratherrrr bad. Silly boat is meant for heavy people. I wanna try Wai Kit's Vanquish.

1st 2 weeks of November. Thats what training is all about right now. I'm gonna get that gold. Just you wait POL-ITES.

On a totally separate note...I've received the gift of tongues. :DD You dont know how excited I was to receive it. I almost jumped out of my chair and ran to the front. I've been waiting 2 years. and I've finally got it. God you are amazinggggggggg. Whoohoo!

2008-09-16T22:31:00.004+08:00

DAY 1 of F1 Grand Prix Work. I was greeted by this...

The keys were in the ignition. Was tempted to try to turn it on
But I made do with this instead...
This is a minute part of the stock needed for the event. we went crazy counting thousands of chopsticks, teddy bears, place mats, napkins etc etc.
Yes, I went crazy

COLD TURKEYYYY. Day 1.

Suffering, dying, shivering.

Saturday please hurry. Nelo is waiting for me.

2008-09-12T20:10:00.005+08:00

Crazy groupies

It has been the craziest of weeks. Alright, so technically its only been the 2nd week of hols. Yet pretty eventful, until it has got my body tired without me realising. Training has been daily at 8am. Waking up is the hardest part worse than training itself. Once I've conquered the sleepy hormones that tell me to snooze just a little bit more in bed, I'm up and ready for the day.

Bear with my ranting, providing minute details of the week. Tuesday saw Jon fly off to Manchester to study medicine. It seemed like just a while ago that he announced his application to the U. Probably a year and half ago. But time didnt give us much to wait for and he left with Aunty Elizabeth, Tuesday Night. Matt is left alone at home. Not exactly...considering that his Ahma and uncle are staying with him but alone nontheless. What with his dad in China, brother and mom in Manchester, hes left in singapore to fight the prelims. A lonely affair, which I think he feels but tries not to show. :

Wednesday and yst was ferrying to and fro home, school and Aloha Loyang. Guess that tired me out pretty much. Sleeping at 1 or 2am and waking up at 7 for training and then hopping onto the bus to down town east. Travelling sure makes you tired.

On top of everything, results were released wednesday afternoon. I received an sms, opening it thinking that it was one of the team mates or class groupies only to find myself staring in horror at B's and C's, wondering if they had sent it to the correct student. I had to double check the matrix number. I was my grades alright. Staring at me from the phone screen. I couldnt help but give a yell of surprise and shock in the library. Thankfully there was only Josh around and that got him prepared for his own grades which he received right after mine.

I swear that receiving results via sms can give you a heartattack. I'ved deproved. Not a single distinction or A. Dang. B's and C's. What in the world. C's arent exactly welcomed in my report card. They make it look really ugly, like coffee stains on your Jodi Picoult story book. The realisation of my grades settled in only an hour later, on the bus to the chalet. I was making frantic/excited calls to various coursemates to check if I was the only one who had thrown away the chance to maintain DHL and graduate with a diploma with Merit.

3.57 to 3.41. Totally unacceptable. Thank God for second chances, second semesters.
Targets:
Culinary Science- A

Service Skills Methodology- B+

Meetings, Incentives, Conventions and Exhibitions-A

Festivals and events Management-B+

Management ACCOUNTING AND FINANCE-B

CDS-A

I got a C+ for Accounting for Hospitality and I've gotta take Finance next sem. sigh. Above all I've GOT TO pull up my GPA to a minimum of 3.5 in order for a chance to get Diploma with merit.

Apart from receiving horrible results, I'm pretty much looking forward to startig work with F1 Grand Prix Pte Ltd. Only problem is that I'm fretting over the loss of training. 2 weeks of Puasa(fasting) from rowing. I think I'll die from not touching the water. I cant take the whole cake and eat it. Danggg.

Right enough ranting. Pictures up soon when I get them from the various friends.

2008-09-06T21:57:00.003+08:00

Instead of Army half marathon I took part in Sam's half marathon today. Whacked 20km technique, 2 sets of 250m and 2 sets of 50m sprints. Total of 21.1km. haha and I didnt plan it. Coach called me up and gave me my training programme. I almost melted into the pontoon after that.

Problem was the wind was terribly strong. Strong meaning my paddle flew off the pontoon into the water, my nalgene bottle filled with water was blown off into the water as well and my boat itself could have rolled into the reserviour had I not held on to it for dear life. Wind plus 2 irritating speed boats going around and around the reserviour provided the ultimate challenge today. Like as if they're trying to help me train up for round ubin eh. YEA RIGHT.

Went down to City Hall after that just to spend some time alone curled up with a Starbucks Caramel Frap, Jodi Picoult book, my Bible and diary. I must say that time spent solved the emptiness I've been feeling for what feels the longest time ever. Pondering about the changes that has happened and will be happening for the rest of the year, praying and questioning God and feeling so so angry with myself.

Bumped into Danny at Citylink and even he commented that I looked real tired. I doubt that I'm tired physically...well alright maybe a little, but a lot of it has to do with not relying on God but my own strength to live. My mistake, my bad, my sin.

But my Lord's mercies are new every morning and I'm grateful for that.

Frankly this past year has been a hell of a ride.

Changes changes changes...

Church

Class

Additional responsibilities in the team

Home

Friends

It has not been what I would have planned my year to be. But who am I to plan for it's God who decides what stays and what goes. Moving to S.Gardens will be another change to come in Nov. No more Terence visiting when he feels like it. No more COCO on sundays. No more climbing 3 storeys of steps to reach home. :] But I suppose that this is life isnt it? We gotta move along when our job is done for God.

Theres so much more than what meets the eye. So much more that what i've written. If you're curious, lets meet for a cuppa. :)

So much more when you have the Lord. :)

2008-09-05T19:11:00.003+08:00

Celebrated Wee Chew's and Winnie's birthday on monday with THEM giving us a dinner treat at The Manhatten Fish Market. Great food, Awesome staff, and the Perfect friends to be with.

Gina and Jess
Winnie, Wee Chew and yours truly
On the house. with relightable candles for a thousand wishes. :)

Wee Chew and I were so busy fiddling around with the guitars that he didnt realise we bought him the drum sticks he wanted.

2008-09-02T20:49:00.003+08:00

I miss island life

I miss the monorail
I miss the environment and greenery and peacocks.

I miss 2K01I miss the 4 guys of the class.

Holiday trainings have started. Gonna get as much water time as I can during this period. Well apart from the 2 weeks of work that is. Sam cant exactly get the whole cake and eat it all can she? =/ Give and take my girl, give and take.

Training, baking, shopping but but but my friends are all buried under their textbooks and notes in preparation for A's. Even if i do hang out with them they'll be studying. Samuel Kwan! What day are you free to go out! We should go crash Norman's hall or something. hahaha.

I have to find a past time on rest days to entertain myself or else i'll go wacky. Chun Leng suggested I do air paddling or roll on the floor but the floor is a tad cold these few days. Maybe i'll just swivel on my chair round and round. haha. Or maybe just maybe start hanging out at the basketball courts again. Not that the usual gang will be there. Some army, some A's. Oh welllllls. Sam shall make do with what she has. :))

2008-08-29T23:00:00.002+08:00

Its one of those days that you feel bummed and out. Stupid cough is getting to my brains racking my chest. I swear I could dig my cheat out scrub it clean and place it back.

I lack strength. Dont even know if I can complete 22km tomorrow. Strength please come back.

Do you ever get those days that you just feel like rolling into a ball and hiding in your mom's closet, playing hide and seek.

Or climbing the monkeybars and hanging there so that your "blind mouse" friend cant get you

Pointing laser pointers at innocent people as they walk on the street at night below your house and at bored security guards.

Calling out "HELLO!" in a loud voice and then ducking down so that the pedestrian cant find you from your house window.

Childish moments. But i've been doing it. haha. at least the latter 2.

she'll always be the good buddy to everyone and anyone huh. just the buddy. :]

2008-08-28T21:57:00.004+08:00

160808.
I went down to the reserviour like any other saturday training. Oh how I wish it was. That Coach didnt had that talk with Chrys, that Coach didnt leave them with a decision to make: Do you want to quit?, that everything will be alright and she'll forgive him for the rubbish that he said and she'll continue training and we'll do our 10km in a K2.

Chrys didnt even tell me before hand. All I got was shock and numbness for the rest of the day. Blame me that I rely too much on people. That Im selfish and only wanted what I thought would be the greatest possibility of winning a K2 race. Stunned. My mind was blank when Wei Jie who was the first to tell me the news relayed it to me. I tried to act nonchalant. I tried to be strong that it didnt affect me. But after hugging her, my screen bravado broke. I guess I was thankful for my sunglasses. I was desperately trying to hide away from the juniors. I had to be strong but I couldnt.

The last thing Chrys said? "if you want an explanation i'll email you" That wasnt what I wanted, and still not what I want.

Training will carry on as usual. But I guess at times I'll unconciously wonder where on earth is Chrystal when we're suppose to do pullups. Or my shoulders are sore from rowing and we give each other massages. and the after training, looking forward to drinking foamy Endurox. The sharing of lockers with our bright yellow floats and smelly running shoes.

I still remember the first training where we were made to run 2 rounds. Janis and Chrys told stupid silly riddles on the first km.

Its not just training that i'll miss with her. The trip to Jurong Swimming complex, the conflicts btwn her and JM everything. As a friend. CHRYSTAL WE BETTER MEET UP LIKE ONCE IN A WHILE I TELL YOU. OR ELSE I'LL HUNT YOU DOWN. :)

Disappointed? Very. But it's her choice and I respect that.

2008-08-28T21:45:00.003+08:00

Alright man! exams are over! 2 months of holidays! 2 months of training! 2 weeks of F1 work! moooneyy coming in. Yipee!

Hopefully Mr Sun will be out on training days, though we're training early mornings. :D

Happy Birthday Wee Chew! During Study Week :D

Samsee's happy and ready to cook and steward yo! SSM and Culinary uniform measurements left a hole in Daddy's pocket. $260.

Plentyyyy of things to blog about. soon!

2008-08-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

Being sick with cough and on the brink of asthma isnt the best thing that could happen during exam week.

I'm living this week and forever more on God and nothing else. Lord help me.

"With love and strength for each new day, He will make a way, He will make a way."

2008-08-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

Today isnt the best day to end study week. Aching body, freezing weather, feeling like a dump. For no particular reason, my back and head has been aching the entire day. Forcing me to cut down on studies and instead commit the most horrible crime during study week. Sleep, sleep sleep. 5 hours additional. Oh goodness gracious, Lord have mercy on me. Help me in my papers tomorrow.

I concluded that my muscles went into a state of shock. They were probably waiting for the usual saturday trainings to start but it never came. So they spasmed and cause all the aches im experiencing now. And I feel like a 10 000 year old granny with rheumatism. Though its not in the bones. haha.

Atrocious timings I swear. Attractions Management paper set at 9 30am and Accounting paper at 7pm. 6 hours of suspense. Nvm. Sam will make full use of the 6 hours. Practice practice practice. I must, I shall, I will balance the balance sheet and not make careless mistakes on the profit and loss statements.

Beijing Olympics has come to a close. Some sports never cease to amuse me. Handball for one. The female Russian team's coach. One fierce grizzly bear. the only thing that I understood was "STUPID STUPID!". and he scolded them for crying after they lost the gold medal to Norway. Cold hearted bear.

Adam Van Korverdann under performed. Getting trashed in the 1000m and coming in only a 2nd for 500m. What got me rolling on the couch in laughter was seeing Tim Brabants biting his bronze medal. Hello! only gold medallists are suppose to bite their Gold medal. and thats to test if its pure gold (which it isnt anyway). You dont bite to test if yours is pure bronze! Go and do some reading up on olympics history sir.

" These guys will be on breakfast cereal boxes!"- Canoeing/Kayaking commentator on China's C2 Men paddlers who claimed the Gold.

2008-08-22T22:27:00.001+08:00

Motivation to study hard and look forward to next saturday.

MOTIVATION. :D

Hurry, learn to balance quickly friend! :D Cookies for you and me!

2008-08-22T19:47:00.002+08:00

Samsee spent her friday rowing, eating, talking and i dont know what else. Everything except studying. :((

I've booked my BTT! 16 October. Tagged along with Bo Chun, Xiang Lin and fellow friend. If not I wont know how to go there. Flying grass and the long long walk cause we dropped off too early. Roar! Haha.

STUDY SAM STUDY! Maintain 3.5! GAHHHHH.

2008-08-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

Shes feeling... funny & weird & wondering all at once.

What should she do?

Study Study Study.

I'm so afraid that my GPA will fall. It Cannot, Must Not, Will Not, Shall Not drop below a 3.5.
Sam will start mugging real hard from tuesday onwards.

Wandering up and down the library today didnt help much in studying.

No fear Sam! You can do it. After all...if God is for you, who can be against you? :)

2008-08-16T21:43:00.005+08:00

TAS Party Night was simply smashing. I'm already missing the class. 2K01, this semester has been great, awesome, fantastic, wonderful, a blast. TAS life would not be what it was without you all.

Max was silly enough to tap in and out in and out of the monorail station. He wanted to do it for the last time. hahaha.

Wee Chew: You becoming a class rep just because you picked the paper with a smiley face on it. So grateful for a spunky rep like you. Continue to drum man! jam some day =)
Lay: First Impression? Act Cool dont wanna mix with others guy. Yes you're still act cool. But you're an awesome, thoughtful, act cool noob prince that we all love.
Naz: BASS STONER. 70% strength! pace pace pace! Go canadian dragons! Gonna miss travelling back to TP from TAS with you, maz, edwin, silas and gina man.
Jessica: Forever bullying me. Noob calling noob noob. Noob volleyballer on day 1. :) Pleasent memories.
Winnie: LATE AGAIN! OVER SLEEP AGAIN! haha.Eh ssm cannot afford to be late yea "innocent one"
Amanda Yap: Call me, call me!!! mambo night. Forever getting high and rushing off for casting and work. Stop being grumpy over your hair yea. :D
Gina: Seriously, no matter how much teasing you've gotten from me, the "fondue", mud pie, GST, joke of the century and a thousand other things everyday, you've been a great great friend. really glad to have you in my class. really, truly. All the best for netball IVPs yea. :)
Joanne: Luge craze! haha. Seeing your crazy poses in the pictures make me laugh
Clarissa: Spongebob campfire song, la bi xiao xin, HAM JING PENG and all your superb imitations of different voices are gonna be missed.

Right I have 13 more statements to wirite for 2K01. leave it till next time. :DD

Clairrr
Class rep giving his speech at the square
Si Kai being himself, retarded ass.
Ms Joan Ho, 8 years younger last night. Dancing like no tmr

Celine! Falling over the light. ahaha.
Amanda getting reallll high.
Max @ the guitar
Rock on Wee Chew
Lay doing his thing
Perfect ambience in TAS for partying

Brandon, Gina, Max

Edwin!!! SWEAT SWEAT SWEAT

xoxo

2008-08-12T22:20:00.005+08:00

3rd year of National Day Celebration with SFers. Gracia took this. Lousy photography skills.
The host(fellow canoeist) who refused to let us even wash plates cause he was scared that we'll break it or do something horrible. We're GIRLS. How bad can it get?
We had to entertain ourselves while waiting for the host/chef/entertainer to finish cooking our dinner.

Aileeeen!!
Matthias! forever on the phone.
A very happy chef and satisfied SFers.
Choo Choo train chugging into the tunnel. Open your mouth...
Yours truly, Terence L., Marcus(Host), Matt, Terence C., Gracia, Aileen.

Next post: Memories @ TAS.

The perfect attire for Business Etiquette & Service Excellence assessment.

Slippers, wrongly buttoned blazer, backpack, unpinned hair. Well...it is Sentosa, rather warm you know. Dont blame me!

2008-08-11T22:06:00.003+08:00

School today was a tad disappointing. I was expecting the release of results for ROM only to be informed that technology itself will be used to convey the coursework grade instead of the tutors being the usual medium. Arghhhhh.

But Mr. Fernando was nice enough to let us off 40mins earlier so that Amanda and i could run off in search of a television in Sentosa to catch the 100m Butterfly finals. Yes Tao Li. We initially thought that the reception lady would be kind enough to relent and change the channel from CNA to 5 for 5 minutes. Kind was she not. I never liked her anyway. So we started panicking but smart me remembered the TV that hangs from the ceiling of KOUFU, 200m away. Run we did. Just in time to find a seat and watch the competitors stroll in. 5th placing, 18 years of age. She has 10 more years of future. and I'm pretty certain that if she keeps it up Tao Li wont have any problem of placing in the London 2012.

Managed to catch part of syncronised diving while on the way to TP. China's perfect 10 gave them the Gold. Beautiful extensions, points and entry. Simply amazing, in perfect harmony while for other countries, most of them were not able to enter together.

Gymnastics...the horror, nightmare one can experience falling from the uneven bars, confidence shattered to a million pieces but yet needing to complete the sequence. Poor He Kexin. I guess it took her all she got to control her tears until after completion. I should think that even though the team managed to place 1st for the day, the guilt, embarassment and shattered confidence will affect the rest of her performance. God Bless her little heart.

Right, enough of me rattling on and on about the Olympics. Its exactly 2 weeks to my first 2 papers. Attractions Management and Accounting for Hospitality and Tourism. Oh GG. I have not started my revision. Lord help me.

"Do not leave blanks in your paper please. Even if you do not know, please bullshit something"-Ms Maggie Seow, Lecturer for Resorts Operations Management (ROM)

2008-08-10T22:08:00.003+08:00

I hate, detest, loath the current McDonald's advertisement depicting Olympic athletes muching on fries and burgers. Come On! Give us a break. Its the Olympics for goodness sake. I bet half the population of the Olympics village has not and will never step foot into the Mc's outlet there. The other half that do...thats because they're only officials and they dont have to c are about their diet.

Either McDonalds is out to target really stupid people that will fall for the advert or Mc's thinks that by airing such an ad, it'll convince people that it really is healthy. Its irritating to see Mc's so desperate to try and change the mindset of its consumers that it really is healthy fastfood. You want healthy? Go eat Subway.

I've turned anti Mediacorp. They have close to zlich showing of the kayak semis/finals/heats. Only on the 23rd for 1 hour. ONLY 1 HOUR and it isnt Live. HD 5 is showing buttttt tell me, who in the world has HD 5? *growls* Stupid Mediacorp

2008-08-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

Im goin to the zoo zoo zoo, how about you you you?
You can come too too too, we're going to the zoo zoo zoo. :D

I want to visit the zoooo. But exams are coming. How how how. and I dont have a car to drive down. Uncle Xiang Lin said friday but i gotta submit my smelly bese portfolio. If only I can complete it tonight. =/ and then submit it tomorrow. and then Zoooo on friday. Oh wells. After exams it shall be.

Tuesday and today were grumpy, headache-y days.

Talking to coach about Mr W. made me think a lot these few days. let it go sam let it go.

2008-08-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

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2008-08-03T19:48:00.005+08:00

The entire weekend has been simply wonderfully amazing. Thank You dear friends for your wishes, celebrations and numerous cakes. I gotta train extra hard this week to work it all off. Haha.

Friday was spent helping coach with emails and then he drove me down to sentosa for my class's volleyball game. Which turned out to be a whipping good time. (pun intended) Thanks ah Amanda! I was covered in whipped cream which melted under the hot sun.

The chocolate cake from the mess hall
Close you're eyes and make a wish! Yea right.

Sooo dead Amanda.

managed to get Wee Chew's face with naz standing a safe distance away.

Culprit No. #1- MAX GOH

Culprit No. #2- PANG WEE CHEW Culprit No. #3- LAY
Yea man. I smelt like eggs and had to shower 2xs.
Thanks Gina. :D

Friday night was dinner with family and Kallista at Park Royal Hotel. Scrumptious buffet. Thanks Dad. :)

Friday night 12am. My Canoe juniors spammed me online and via sms. The phone was vibrating non stop for the next 3 minutes. and I was getting dizzy from the nudging on MSN.

Saturday was the usual training. 15km paddling. Who knew that the team had bought a cake and healthy snacks to celebrate. The card they made was biggg. Even coach was in the entire plan to try and distract me while the prepared. Tsktsk. TPCT! YOU GUYS MADE MY DAY! Sadly theres no photos. The guys had a pontoon wrestling match as my birthday present. Water Gladiators!

Sunday!! 1 day after. Gracia forgot about me. So she made it up by going out after church. and then along came Matt, Mark, Marcus, Terence Cheng. Oh my dear dear friends. The boys didnt utter a single complain while we shopped. Matt did complain cause he had to send me home for the other surprise to work out. haha. That boy.

So when we reached my house, Aileen, Zhi Zhen, Zhi Yun, Xin Ying and Terence L. were all waiting in the kitchen. Crazy stuff. The happy birthday on the cake caught fire. haha.

Yun and Zhen.
Sam give a pose! What pose?! yah yah! this pose!

More pictures of the weekend when I get them. Little angles in the form of friends that God has given to me. "So blessed I cant contain it."

2008-07-29T22:30:00.003+08:00

F to the A to the T. Im feeling darn fat. I need to do core exercises and running.

Accounts lecture was spent studying for BESE test and laughing at the songs inside Max's i-pod. Timmy Thomas, Celine Dion and Stand By Me by Timon and Pumba. Accounts. Hah.

Naz, Wee Chew and Gina came to explore my house and jam a little today after school. Wee Chew was checking out the drum set that hes considering to buy from me. Photos when i've uploaded them.

Monday's Joy
Tuesday's Music
Wednesday's Goodbye?

What i'll give to be rolling about in the plains of New Zealand right now. Running away from thoughts consistently at the back of my mind. Its a mess now. Not you, but me. I'm a mess inside my head. Total mess that I've difficulty sorting out.

Last year they got me mad and fuming at them before appearing at my doorstep. Last year a whole bunch of them had conjunctivities including the idiot now in Thailand. This year will be spent like any other saturday. Training at good ole' Bedok Reserviour from morn to late noon.

2008-07-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

So many things are running through my head yet im at a loss for words.

Ever since it happened 2 years ago, i've never viewed people the same way again.

Rewind, erase, play.

Frustrations.

Pack your bags and wake up at 5am Mr W. See you when I see you.